am i really good at pretending to be insane or am i actually mentally fucked up

i think it might've been an act at first but it hasn't been for a long time

no, it wasn't ever an act, i just used to tell people it was an act so they wouldn't worry, but i can't hide it anymore

i don't know who i really am, but it doesn't matter much, i'm getting worse no matter who i am

and i don't want any advice or help because i've heard it all before, i'm dug in too deep to get out

all i want now is to be loved so it doesn't hurt so much anymore